Let the wind blow. Let it all go.

Firstly, assalamualaikum.

Secondly, *widen my eyes and take a deep breath*

Wow! It took me years to post an entry since the last time i logged in. Seriously. I have nothing to tell only that i've grown busy these lately since i am a University student, well that is not a surprise, and that i learnt a lot while being busy. 

Let me briefly explain my situation. I was studying Information Management in UiTM Kampus Machang and currently staying with my other 7 lovely and awesome friends in a very comfortable and cozy house. I wish i had nothing better than this.

And.. the story goes like this.

Few months ago, i had a very hard time back in Kelantan. There was no time that my room mates and i had a peace in our minds. I DO understand how we should face all the hard times in order to be strong in time BUT i felt it is TOO much to bear and just STOP giving me any of it. JUST STOP RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE! That was what i thought.

*sigh*

To tell you the truth, i'm kinda tired of all these troubles. There is no end of it. Every day, every time and worst, every second of my life while being there, ( which i referred to Kelantan ) troubles will come. It is just in the matter of size and levels of difficulty. It's funny when you see it as that but it's the uncomfortable truth that will always haunting us.

There was a time when we were troubled by irresponsible individual or much better if i put those persons as scumbags. Yes, harsh. They don't know how to respect people and so called "privacy". Go to hell with their pervert needs. Just buy porn magazines or something. But DON'T! Just don't make other people hurt or worry or fear or anything that related to that unpleasant and uncomfortable feelings. I just hate those scumbag! Seriously. I just want to live peacefully and finishes my study, can't i?? I'M SORRY to say those harsh and inappropriate words. But i'm not sorry to them! Because they deserved it!

However. 

I understand. Really, there are so much poor communities who can't afford.. you know.. I'm not going to write that again because i might be in the headline soon. Not going to let that happens, so what i'm going to say is that i can really understand them. They just like us. I mean like "like" not like "equal or same".

Oh! I suddenly remember of the song "Trouble is a friend" by Lenka. Her song fits me right. Another trouble came up after the harassment towards our lovely rent house. It was more to internal leakage. If i were to give an example, it would be the best to describe it as internal issues. I don't know how to describe the embarrassment that i received for the despicable and hatred issue. Such a shameful and hurtful. Yes, i was hurt. The "issue" does ends but the pain and the mark it left can't be erase that easily. 

I'm not mad. I'm not angry. I'm not.

What i can say about this is that people says, every bad things that happen, there will be a good thing behind it. And what is it? The bad turns good, of course. So do the people who faced the trouble. From being not aware to being cautious, from being a liar to honest, forgotten to grateful. It can't be a bad things that we should blame on what had happen. Don't we learn to accept all Qada' and Qadar as well as we have to accept everything and being thankful instead of blaming. 

I learnt to be more patient.

I learnt to be more rational.

Stop being too sensitive over things that is as tiny as a flea.

Forgiving and ask forgiveness is what i should practices. We all should. Afterall, that is how humanity can survives through generation. 

"This has been a diary of a girl with a sling scarf."

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Thanks a bunch for reading this post. ^,~

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