Let the wind blow. Let it all go.

Firstly, assalamualaikum.

Secondly, *widen my eyes and take a deep breath*

Wow! It took me years to post an entry since the last time i logged in. Seriously. I have nothing to tell only that i've grown busy these lately since i am a University student, well that is not a surprise, and that i learnt a lot while being busy. 

Let me briefly explain my situation. I was studying Information Management in UiTM Kampus Machang and currently staying with my other 7 lovely and awesome friends in a very comfortable and cozy house. I wish i had nothing better than this.

And.. the story goes like this.

Few months ago, i had a very hard time back in Kelantan. There was no time that my room mates and i had a peace in our minds. I DO understand how we should face all the hard times in order to be strong in time BUT i felt it is TOO much to bear and just STOP giving me any of it. JUST STOP RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE! That was what i thought.

*sigh*

To tell you the truth, i'm kinda tired of all these troubles. There is no end of it. Every day, every time and worst, every second of my life while being there, ( which i referred to Kelantan ) troubles will come. It is just in the matter of size and levels of difficulty. It's funny when you see it as that but it's the uncomfortable truth that will always haunting us.

There was a time when we were troubled by irresponsible individual or much better if i put those persons as scumbags. Yes, harsh. They don't know how to respect people and so called "privacy". Go to hell with their pervert needs. Just buy porn magazines or something. But DON'T! Just don't make other people hurt or worry or fear or anything that related to that unpleasant and uncomfortable feelings. I just hate those scumbag! Seriously. I just want to live peacefully and finishes my study, can't i?? I'M SORRY to say those harsh and inappropriate words. But i'm not sorry to them! Because they deserved it!

However. 

I understand. Really, there are so much poor communities who can't afford.. you know.. I'm not going to write that again because i might be in the headline soon. Not going to let that happens, so what i'm going to say is that i can really understand them. They just like us. I mean like "like" not like "equal or same".

Oh! I suddenly remember of the song "Trouble is a friend" by Lenka. Her song fits me right. Another trouble came up after the harassment towards our lovely rent house. It was more to internal leakage. If i were to give an example, it would be the best to describe it as internal issues. I don't know how to describe the embarrassment that i received for the despicable and hatred issue. Such a shameful and hurtful. Yes, i was hurt. The "issue" does ends but the pain and the mark it left can't be erase that easily. 

I'm not mad. I'm not angry. I'm not.

What i can say about this is that people says, every bad things that happen, there will be a good thing behind it. And what is it? The bad turns good, of course. So do the people who faced the trouble. From being not aware to being cautious, from being a liar to honest, forgotten to grateful. It can't be a bad things that we should blame on what had happen. Don't we learn to accept all Qada' and Qadar as well as we have to accept everything and being thankful instead of blaming. 

I learnt to be more patient.

I learnt to be more rational.

Stop being too sensitive over things that is as tiny as a flea.

Forgiving and ask forgiveness is what i should practices. We all should. Afterall, that is how humanity can survives through generation. 

"This has been a diary of a girl with a sling scarf."

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Like Junhyung and Hara..

" When was it all started? 3 months ago? Yes. "

This entry is more like a secret I've been holding for all these time just like Junyung and Hara held back then. Yup, when I said back then its really back then. That was before their secret is no longer a secret. And what is that secret exactly? You have to figure it out later. 

So, what I'm going to say is that my situation right now is like them. Like Junhyung and Hara. Just as in the song title, Like Cho Yong Pil sang by PHANTOM, the Korean group?

Sigh.. You guys have no idea who they are, right? Click on the link.

I guess no one can guess the relationship between the song and the title and the truth I'm trying to tell, huh? So I'm babbling nonsense here, huh? Well, we will see about that. 

Sometimes I do feel like Junhyung and Hara. Why? Because they were so secretive but lovely sometimes. I not going to tell the truth yet I'm not exactly hiding it. People just don't figure it out yet and its not my fault.

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Its already the second time we went out together and we were so lucky that no one sees us.  We went out like a normal person did except that we kinda nervous. We kinda taking precaution in case someone sees us? But no one did. As time passed by, I started to feel like 

" Why won't people bump with us when we were together and we got shocked but things can't be covered no more? And then we can go out without being so cautious of the thought that people might know. That would be better. "

I feel guilty but I don't think I'm in the wrong either. This is not something that we can shout  out to the world and it is more than wise to just keep it low and when the time has come for people to know about it, then we have no reason to hide any more. Just let people know. 

You can say what ever you want to say, but this is who I am and I hope you will cheer for us. That's all I asked. 

" This has been a diary of a grumpy girl with sling scarf"

To be continued...

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I'm now an adult.

Saya nak kahwin!


Tapi dengan siapa? Siapa nak kahwin dengan awak, cik Sunlover... Ingat... awak tu memasak pun tak pandai... perangai macam budak-budak... tak matang langsung... bla bla bla.. tapi.. saya nak kahwin! Awak tu sedar la cik Sunlover, calon pun tak ada lagi tapi hati membuak-buak nak kahwin. Lagi, belajar pun tak habis, ada hati nak kahwin. Dan ini semua pengaruh cerita Setia Hujung Nyawa tu kan? Ehhh.. macamana boleh tahu ni? Hihihi.


First time in my life, i fall in love with a Malay drama, you all. Bukan drama luar biasa, tapi drama biasa-biasa yang encik 'abang' Amar Asyraf dan cik adik manis Nelydia Senrose berlakon telah mampu menarik hati keras saya yang sukar di ajak menonton drama melayu ni. Berapa kali harus ku katakan saya layan Korean Drama aje.. Opp, jangan la cakap saya tak sokong drama melayu.. Ini atas dasar minat kan, tak boleh paksa-paksa. Kalau ada yang terasa, maaf..


That's all! Hehe. Saya kena layan drama ni sorang-sorang sekarang. Member cerita 'abang' saya semua dah ada di rumah masing-masing menjalani hari-hari indah bersama keluarga. Saya juga begitu. Happy Holiday, friends!

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New

Woah. It has been like forever since my last entry. It's funny because i thought i'm going to abandon this blog. You guess what? That is not going to happen.


So, with this new revolution, i'm going to start over. This blog will be like a brand new blog full of surprises. Haha. Exaggerating much. I can't promise you that but! I'll try my best.

Okay. Report. Report.


Intoduction of this blog's owner

Nickname : SunL (i'll never gave up my name, sorry)
Age : 21 years old
Status : Single but not available and a University Student
Interests : Kpop (the most of all), gadgets, natures, uniqueness, languages, humours and thrilling activities. (not fixed, sometimes changed)
Religious : Muslim
Rationality : Malayan
Nationality : Malaysian
Address : Muar, Johor.


More? Nope. Later, you'll know me.

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